My journey so far....



YEAH.... I am blogging!  I have read so many other people's blogs and enjoy them so much but have never ventured out myself.  I felt I needed to find a place to share my feelings, receipes, ideas and rants- Facebook doesnt let me type enough in my status box-lol

Since this is a new project for me, please be patient with me while I find the "look" I want and the design I love....It may change several times a day until I'm content.  According to my husband that may never happen...*sigh*

Just to bring you current, here is a little about me and where I am right now.  As, I have stated in my "about me" post,  I am 32 and somedays I feel every minute of it- then somedays I forget I am in my 30's with 2 children and not a footloose teenager again.  I met my husband during one of my many summer visits to my Aunt & Uncles home here in Southeast Texas, I lived in Central Kentucky where my father pastored.  He was just starting to attend their church and I thought he was pretty handsome....well the rest in history...;)  We married in October 2002 and rented a small, 900 sq ft, 2bdr -1 bth house for the first 1.5 years of our marriage. 

This was us while dating in 2002

This was us in May 2011 

January after our first anniversary we discovered we were expecting our first baby- YEAH SO EXCITED!  My parents where coming in for a visit and it was perfect timing to make the announcement.  I worked at a Law Firm at the time and 1 day, about a week after learning our exciting news, I realized, I was miscarrying.  This was devestating to Steve and I and we leaned very heavily on our friends and family to get through this time of disappointment.  But, God was good to us and on Fathers Day (June) of that same year, 2004, we learned we were expecting again!  In August of 2004 we purchased our dream home and watched God start putting the pieces to our puzzle together so wonderfully!

 Preston was born in February 2005 and I just couldnt go back to work...;)  He had us totally tied in knots and still does!! 



This is my "Preston Jerame Cole...."

In September 2007 we made the grand announcement we were expecting again and this time it was a baby girl!  I had a picture perfect pregnancy and we were all prepared to bring home a healthy baby girl, when I woke up one morning at 38 weeks and realized something was wrong.  I wasnt feeling her move!  After a call to the Dr's office and a trip to the hospital we were told there was no heartbeat and for a few months it felt like maybe there wasnt a heartbeat for any of us....Ellison Claire was born on June 3, 2008 and was picture perfect!!  The Dr's tell us there was a knot in her umbilical cord and it was just a 1/2,000 chance that it happens.  Once again, our world was rocking and we leaned on our friends and family to get us through.  During this whole process we QUICKLY realized, we still had an amazing 3 year old who needed us to keep his world normal, so Mommy & Daddy fell apart in private and Preston was told "Baby Ellison decided she just wanted to be with Jesus and she is so very happy!"  I have literally felt Jesus carry us during this loss....there are only 1 set of footprints in the sand during those weeks!!

As soon as Steve and I heard the news we knew we where going to have another baby as soon as possible!  There was a hollow place in our hearts that only a baby could fill!  So 8 weeks later, we were pregnant with another baby!  This time we decided not to find out the gender of the baby!  Had to keep an element of excitment to this "18 month long pregnancy" lol  I told people I felt like an elephant carrying a baby so long!  BUT....in April of 2009 we were blessed with a gorgeous, healthy & screaming baby boy!!  Grayson Alexander came into this world fast & furious, the Dr didnt even make it in time to deliver him, and he hasn't slowed down since...lol  Amazes me how God knows exactly what we need, when we need it!!  He has brought some much joy & excitement into our family!!! 

This is my "little monkey" (old picture but my favorite)

Now, our lives are filled with the fussing and fighting of 2 boy, school for our 1st grader, church activities and responsibilities, trying to sell our home and digging to know where to from here!  Since the first of this year we have felt God pull in the reins on us and we are standing absolutely still!  We know it's a preparing time for the next phase/stage in our lives but it doesnt make it any more enjoyable!  I have a gut feeling it's gonna be big though when it happens!  Maybe that's why I started this blog....

Let's start this journey..........